Cookin up some Love in my world..

By: openheartproduction

Apr 06 2016

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Aperture:f/2.4
Focal Length:4.12mm
ISO:80
Shutter:1/20 sec
Camera:iPhone 5

 

“Your truest friends are the ones who will stand by you in your darkest moments because they’re willing to brave the shadows with you. And in your greatest moments because they’re not afraid to let you shine.”-Nicole Yatsonsky

 

Today I was thinking about how incredibly blessed I am. I have such a solid crew of friends and family that are always ready to rise to the occasion to be there in times of trouble and times of joy and celebration. Or just being chill as we share our mundane day that usually turns into the “do you remember that time….?” followed by fits of laughter or a moment of thanks that we lived through a really scary tough time together. Rejoicing we had one another to weather that storm with.

I’ve learned through the years that we all have that dark abyss side that we couldn’t possibly share this one because then what would “they” think of me. They might find out I’m a mess, or haven’t a clue of how to handle this one…so I’ll just keep it to myself. That’s where the real “SCARY” lives…in our mind. All alone thinking creepy thoughts about yourself that is a total lie. When I step out to be brave and courageous to share my scary story I wasn’t struck down by lightening, I wasn’t banished to a life of hell on earth…it was the exact opposite.

The heaviness of heart became lighter, the tight muscles across my back relaxed, the lump in my throat that at times prevented me from even speaking the words suddenly opened up and the words flowed, the tears of shame and guilt dried up and a smile appeared. I stood taller and proud that day I opened up and shared my feelings that  had lived for too long in a mumbled mess in my head. My life changed forever.

Thank you all  that held me as I wept after Clyde died. Those that just always seemed to just show up at just the times I really needed them. When the “comparing dance” is stomping in my head you are there to bring me back to me. Reminding me that they want the real Kathleen not the one you think others think you should be. Those that allowed me to me when I  didn’t look or act like that usual happy go luck me.  I’m sure I looked kinda scary to those that didn’t know how to help me.  Truth be told, it scared the hell out of me too. I said…please bare with me. You have “carried” me this far but now I am at a place that only I can go. Fear not, I know I’ll be ok and I hope  you’ll be there of the other side of “this” with pom poms cheering me on. You all were there and have never let me down.

Many, many, many thanks to YOU all. I love you to the moon and back with a side trip to Mars.

 

 

 

 

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