If not now…when?

By: openheartproduction

Jul 03 2013

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I think humans might be like butterflies; people die every day without many other people knowing about them, seeing their colors, hearing their stories… and when humans are broken, they’re like broken butterfly wings; suddenly there are so many beauties that are seen in different ways, so many thoughts and visions and possibilities that form, which couldn’t form when the person wasn’t broken! So it is not a very sad thing to be broken, after all! It’s during the times of being broken, that you have all the opportunities to become things unforgettable! Just like the broken butterfly wing that I found, which has given me so many thoughts, in so many ways, has shown me so many words, and imaginations! But butterflies need to know, that it doesn’t matter at all if the whole world saw their colors or not! But what matters is that they flew, they glided, they hovered, they saw, they felt, and they knew! And they loved the ones whom they flew with! And that is an existence worthwhile!” -C. JoyBell C.

 Today is my 59th birthday! The first day of the last year in the decade of my 50’s in anticipation of the 60’s…humm that has a familiar ring to it…being a former flower child.

The above story that describes the butterfly really struck a cord for me. None of us get through life or even a day without being challenged, kicked around, stretched, wounded, and even broken….but also see the joy in the face of a child, the laughter of friends, the warmth of a hand to hold, arms to hug, beauty in the blue sky, the birds singing and falling into bed saying…Thank you God for this day.

 The first 5 decades have been filled with many twists and turns, laughter and tears, joy and sorrow, triumph and tragedy…but through it all I have been blessed with a family that has always stood with me..even if they didn’t quite understand what I was doing or why, friends that held me and carried me when I couldn’t carry myself, a deep faith that comforts me when I don’t know what to do or where to turn..knowing I don’t have to know, just trust the process and embrace it all.

 I look forward to this year with great anticipation, determination and tons of mad-ass excitement! Who knows what is just around the corner….stay tuned…you’ll be the first to know! 


3 comments on “If not now…when?”

  1. Happy Birthday sweet sweet lady!

  2. It has been a blessing having you in our life. I love you so much. You became a blessing and joy in my life when life around me was at it’s worse. Love you. Congrats

  3. I wish you the happiest and most joy-filled birthday. Hope you are surrounded by wonderful friends and family (or have plans to see them soon)! And I personally know that you are going to have a kick-ass next decade! Alison

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