“Let the people discover you! You might have the key to the locked doors of their lives. Open yourself to the world; you might be the magic the world needs.”-Mehmet Murat ildan
Some days I feel like I’m on a self induced lock down. I go between get up off your lazy ass and start saving the world, and then to hunkering down a contentment that I am right where I am supposed to be. I wonder if we all struggle with that? I think we probably do to a certain extent.
I have shed the guilt about the way I choose to live. It took awhile to settle into a life without kids to manage. They were my life line of love, joy and purpose, especially after Clyde died. I had to move forward with my life not only for the kids but for myself. Some days were such a whirl wind of chaos, fear, exhaustion, yet always sprinkled with laughter and great friends and family that just let me be me…who ever the hell I was or would be post husband and then post little kids aka now incredible adult kids.
With the guidance of many awesome people along my journey… along with some whompin life experiences, I am relatively comfortable living in my own skin. I try not to compare myself to others and stay in my own back yard of opinion. I have always tried to see each situation from both sides…that thanks to being the middle child of 7.
I am on my own incredible journey as we all are. I hope to say YES to all opportunities and experiences that come my way…especially if they me right to the edge of my comfort zone. I want to travel and engage in my life and my world…be it the produce dept. at Jewel grocery store or an orphanage in Haiti. I have been blessed with this life and I’m going to unlock that lock and throw it away and keep the key and wear it as a reminder to “Stay Present, Keep it Real, and God whispered, “We got this!”